Just a quick little post - since I should definitely be getting ready for work instead of blogging!
I think I'm going to have to abandon ship on the 101 things in 1001 days goal - or change it to 101 things in 2002 days ;)
On the bright side, I am feeling like that will give me a little more freedom on here for writing topics. Stay tuned...
A few other quick thoughts:
- I'm living above ground right now and it's amazing!
- Remember when I used to have summers off? I miss that - although getting paid during the summer is quite lovely
- I'm in the process of signing up for a writing course (!!) - cross your fingers that I can adjust my work schedule slightly to make it work...
Until next time...
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Sunday, June 16, 2013
On the move
I have lived in 28 different places in my life so far. That's pretty amazing and/or ridiculous, considering on how you choose to look at it! That's basically an average of 1 place/year (I think...math has never been my strong suit).
11 of those places were out of my control, as you generally have to move with your parents when you're a child. Which means, in the last 12 years I've lived in 18 places. WTF?
I always talk and think about how much I hate change. What I'm starting to realize though, is that I am CONSTANTLY putting myself through it. Apparently I'm a glutton for punishment.
I'm look at place #29 for my life right now. After the recent break-up, my apartment doesn't really feel like "home". I believe your surroundings have a lot to do with your mental health. Also, I'd like to feel safe heading to the grocery store without running into the ex. My apartment is currently in his "turf", and I'd rather just get the heck out of it for my own sake.
I'm feeling relatively OK at the moment. Break-ups are never easy, but the last 6 months were so up and down with us that it really did feel like a bit of a relief. The hardest part is feeling like so much of it was out of my control. If you know me, you know that I like to do things my own way - and this was not something I wanted - so the first bit was a rough go... I'm thankfully smart enough to realize that it's for the best though.
I don't know that I'll ever really understand how a person can change so much from who you thought they were, though. Can anyone really understand that?
I'm in a bit of a self-reflective time right now (aren't we all?), as you probably can guess from the amount of times I've used "I" in this post. So far I've avoided anything drastic - no crazy haircuts or purchases of notes, no decisions to relocate my life thus far (outside of the area code anyways) - so I'd really have to say I'm dealing rather well at the moment. I'm not sure how much of my dealing well has to do with the little pill I'm taking everyday right now, but if it keeps me from being a blubbering mess in my day to day life, It's all good, right? It's actually a really low dose, so I think it's mostly a case of believing it's helping, so it does.
What I'd really like to see myself do is move from a place where my thoughts and actions are "I want...", "I wish...", "I hope..." to saying "I do", "I am", "I will" (I do in the non-wedding sense).
I'd really love to see that happen in regards to this blog, but I'm feeling pretty doubtful about a lot of the things on my list, since my financial situation is so pathetic. I will (ha ha) do what I can though, to make as much of them a reality as I can.
~ Until next time...
11 of those places were out of my control, as you generally have to move with your parents when you're a child. Which means, in the last 12 years I've lived in 18 places. WTF?
I always talk and think about how much I hate change. What I'm starting to realize though, is that I am CONSTANTLY putting myself through it. Apparently I'm a glutton for punishment.
I'm look at place #29 for my life right now. After the recent break-up, my apartment doesn't really feel like "home". I believe your surroundings have a lot to do with your mental health. Also, I'd like to feel safe heading to the grocery store without running into the ex. My apartment is currently in his "turf", and I'd rather just get the heck out of it for my own sake.
I'm feeling relatively OK at the moment. Break-ups are never easy, but the last 6 months were so up and down with us that it really did feel like a bit of a relief. The hardest part is feeling like so much of it was out of my control. If you know me, you know that I like to do things my own way - and this was not something I wanted - so the first bit was a rough go... I'm thankfully smart enough to realize that it's for the best though.
I don't know that I'll ever really understand how a person can change so much from who you thought they were, though. Can anyone really understand that?
I'm in a bit of a self-reflective time right now (aren't we all?), as you probably can guess from the amount of times I've used "I" in this post. So far I've avoided anything drastic - no crazy haircuts or purchases of notes, no decisions to relocate my life thus far (outside of the area code anyways) - so I'd really have to say I'm dealing rather well at the moment. I'm not sure how much of my dealing well has to do with the little pill I'm taking everyday right now, but if it keeps me from being a blubbering mess in my day to day life, It's all good, right? It's actually a really low dose, so I think it's mostly a case of believing it's helping, so it does.
What I'd really like to see myself do is move from a place where my thoughts and actions are "I want...", "I wish...", "I hope..." to saying "I do", "I am", "I will" (I do in the non-wedding sense).
I'd really love to see that happen in regards to this blog, but I'm feeling pretty doubtful about a lot of the things on my list, since my financial situation is so pathetic. I will (ha ha) do what I can though, to make as much of them a reality as I can.
~ Until next time...
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Props to Carrot Top
Got your attention? Good ;)
Read on to see how Carrot Top has given me a little light at the end of a dark tunnel...
So...when I decided on Thing 99 being "Fall in love", I didn't think I'd end up broken-hearted before the 1001 days was out.
I have a hard time letting go; on the flip side, a close friend says I have a great strength to fight & hold on. It really depends on the situation. I need to work on it when it comes to men.
I could wax poetic here about why things didn't work out with him, how they should have, yada yada yada, but I like how this blog, when I'm actually writing for it, is mostly positive. So I'm going to try and keep it that way.
The silver lining of this situation is that it's given me time to focus on my job, where I have been doing really well, and my friends - I have really awesome friends - thank god. Special shout-outs to Janey Canuck & her EDP for helping make a hard week go by with ease (& wine)...
As for Carrot Top, well...
My subconscious clearly thought I needed something to focus on (re: obsess over) over right now, and last weekend, after some crushing news, I experienced the most erotic dream of my life. Starring me & the King of Prop Comedy. Whom I really haven't thought about since my school girls days of watching Regis & Kathie Lee way back when. Whom I can' t stop thinking about now.
The dream was that good.
So clearly, when not moping over love lost, I've spent that last few days googling Carrot Top, watching youtube videos of him & planning a trip to Vegas (and how to finance it). Cause clearly, that's what anyone else in this situation would do...right?
Until next time...
keep dreaming ;)
Read on to see how Carrot Top has given me a little light at the end of a dark tunnel...
So...when I decided on Thing 99 being "Fall in love", I didn't think I'd end up broken-hearted before the 1001 days was out.
I have a hard time letting go; on the flip side, a close friend says I have a great strength to fight & hold on. It really depends on the situation. I need to work on it when it comes to men.
I could wax poetic here about why things didn't work out with him, how they should have, yada yada yada, but I like how this blog, when I'm actually writing for it, is mostly positive. So I'm going to try and keep it that way.
The silver lining of this situation is that it's given me time to focus on my job, where I have been doing really well, and my friends - I have really awesome friends - thank god. Special shout-outs to Janey Canuck & her EDP for helping make a hard week go by with ease (& wine)...
As for Carrot Top, well...
My subconscious clearly thought I needed something to focus on (re: obsess over) over right now, and last weekend, after some crushing news, I experienced the most erotic dream of my life. Starring me & the King of Prop Comedy. Whom I really haven't thought about since my school girls days of watching Regis & Kathie Lee way back when. Whom I can' t stop thinking about now.
The dream was that good.
So clearly, when not moping over love lost, I've spent that last few days googling Carrot Top, watching youtube videos of him & planning a trip to Vegas (and how to finance it). Cause clearly, that's what anyone else in this situation would do...right?
Until next time...
keep dreaming ;)
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